Tuesday, August 23, 2005
Melvin, what do you want to do? What are your ambitions, dreams or ideals? Your future lies in your hands, what you make of it depend on what you do with the present.

Do you want to be a politician or an ambassador/diplomat? Do you want to study courses in university for business or for interest? Find a job you love and you’ll never have to work another day. If I enter a university, should its importance be based on the course it allows me or the contacts it brings? I guess both are equally important but hard to obtained collectively, especially now, but why? Is it because I haven’t been studying since young? 15 was obviously not the best I could obtain in the O’ levels. How about now? At 27, it feels increasingly difficult to achieve a good score of 38 or above. Why am I letting my complacency get the better of me?

But regret is not enough, it just won’t do. I have to change, and change I must. So what if I have the bet now? I doubt it will suffice as a reasonable or sufficient incentive to push myself hard enough. What do I need to do, to find my driving force and motivation? Like Enson said, you need to find a strong ambition and you will naturally be self-motivated.

Melvin, if you don’t achieve 38 or all 6s in your HL subjects, don’t take Political Science or International Relations etc because you sure for hell won't be able to do it in LSE or any other good uni. If you do, congratulations. On the other hand, if you do not have 38 or more, its business and the likes for you in SMU or even hospitality in Switzerland? Nonetheless, you will have to fucking stay in Singapore if you don’t do well and that’s the bottom-line.

In order of incompetence,
Maths HL
English HL
Physics SL
Environmental Systems SL
Economics HL
Chinese SL

The effort required? Enormous

So what’s the plan?

Do my fucking English HW FFS
Relearn my Maths Options for starters
Basically it’s a bit obvious I lack revision and completion of exercises dude.

Stop procrastinating and being complacent; you’re not smart enough for that yet.


mel at 8:24 AM